I'm having a mental block, so I thought maybe pictures could help out, so here are a few I found that really speak to me.
I am, like many others, damaged. I am like many others trying to fit in a world that I don't belong, trying to hide the person that no one wants to know, while trying to show the person that people can tolerate.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Thanksgiving
So here is a few thoughts about what Thanksgiving used to be and what it is now.
THEN
THEN
NOW...
HAPPY STUFFING YOUR FACE SALE DAY!!!
THEN
- In 1620 a ship with 100 people on landed in the Massachusetts Bay
- Only half of the original passengers survived
- An Indian came and taught the people how to grow food
- By the fall they harvested their crop, thanked God and ate.
- Thanksgiving wasn't a national holiday till 1863 when Lincoln scheduled Thanksgiving to be the last Thursday in November
- In 1939 Franklin D. Roosevelt moved Thanksgiving up a week to spur retail sales, BUT people then were outraged! So it got moved back.
- Starting the day after Halloween, Christmas crap starts to come out
- On Thanksgiving day, people stuff themselves till they puke while planing their shopping trip for late that night.
- Stores try and outdo each other by opening earlier and staying open longer
- People trample each other trying to get the best deal
THEN
NOW...
HAPPY STUFFING YOUR FACE SALE DAY!!!
Monday, November 21, 2011
Women today
It makes me so sad to see the female "role models" that young girls have today
We have
1. Bella from Twilight, who has no sense of being unless she has a boyfriend, and manipulates her friends.
2. Kesha... yes Kesha, I had a kindergartner in my class singing take it off....
3. The Kardashian Sisters, you can be a liar, a whore, and completely fake as long as you have money and a
name.
4. Snooki... Need I say more....
We have
1. Bella from Twilight, who has no sense of being unless she has a boyfriend, and manipulates her friends.
2. Kesha... yes Kesha, I had a kindergartner in my class singing take it off....
3. The Kardashian Sisters, you can be a liar, a whore, and completely fake as long as you have money and a
name.
4. Snooki... Need I say more....
Yeah powerful, intelligent, strong, women are not sexy or important anymore I guess...
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Season of Fake
I'm going to sound like a Grinch here, but I really hate this time of year. I think that starting Thanksgiving through my birthday which is in January is the most stressful time for me, I have no idea why really. But every single year since I was 13, this time of year is when I have my deepest lows. I think it has something to do with expectations. I really hate how fake people are this time of year too, it seems like no one ever wants to be nice or give a shit until it's close to Christmas, just give it to me straight, either you like me or you don't I'm not a once a year kind of friend. Speaking of fake, I think my dad takes the crown on that one. If you met my dad, you would think he's one awesome dude, he likes to show to others that he cares about family and God, and other random crap, but in reality he only cares about himself and people who thinks are important, AKA athletes, that of which I am the complete opposite. I think in the past few months he has asked me how I'm doing, three or four times...... Oh well, at least I have an awesome husband, and a few really good friends, I suppose I can't complain
Friday, November 11, 2011
Family Time
I love my family but sometimes they drive me crazy! I get so frustrated and my dad really doesn't get me. I've had one hell of a month, and I've haven't been so low in a very long time, and when I try and explain all of this to my dad, he then decides to tell me how the lady Argos volleyball team won a game, and how he has to write a story about it. Forgot about how I've wanted to kill myself at least three times in the last two weeks, and how I've sliced myself up, compared to his fucking sports teams I'm a worthless piece shit. There are so many days that just wish I was important enough for him, but the sad fact is because I will never be famous, or some super athlete I will never be important enough for him.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Preggo
So im not preggo again... I mean I never was this time around, but I'm so bad because I keep hoping that I am pregnant and it really sucks, I really wish that I could get pregnant, I've already lost one, and it seems like everyone around me is getting pregnant and I'm not. I just really want to have a baby! freaking grrr!
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Betrayed
So we have been living in this house that we are renting from my cousins. By all normal standards this house is not livable. The oven doesn't work, the electricity in a few of the rooms doesn't work at all, there are open wires hanging out of walls, the downstairs bathroom doesn't work at all, and to top it all off there is a huge hole in the porch. My husband was very worried about moving in with the electricity the way it is. We have been living like this for a long time and we haven't voiced our issues until recently, well now my cousin's husband is acting like we are ripping them off because we want them to pay for some of the major fixes, such as the electricity that we were promised would be fixed before we moved in. We pay $600 a month, and now he's saying that it sounds like we don't like the house and we should just move because there are "three other families willing to pay $800 a month" So now I'm thinking why the fuck did we move here in the first place! They were desperate to move and have someone move in, and we helped them out, and now as soon as the shit is started to hit the fan and they are having to be responsible for their house now we are a burden and we should just move, so it doesn't matter that for the first month we had to shower at my parents house, and for the last three months I've been making everything in the microwave and on the stove top. Its just so frustrating that we have had to live like this this whole time and we have put our own money into making this house livable and now they want us to move because we are tired of putting our own money into a house that isn't ours.
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