Thoughts

So it's been a while since I have written, but oh well. So I feel like my body is playing tricks on me, and I don't know how to deal with it. I haven't had my period since December and it's already the middle of March, and my husband and I have been trying to get pregnant so you'd think that oh if you haven't had a cycle in three months you'd be pregnant but you'd be WRONG! I have taken several pregnancy tests and they have all come up negative it's very frustrating. Its so hard and maybe I'm being selfish, I don't know, I just really wish I knew what the fuck was going on with me