A little bit of everything

I have a lot on my mind today so today is going to be about a little bit of everything today.
1. Horse shit is still horse shit no matter what you call it. You can try to dress things up make it sound all pretty like you care and all, but when it all comes down to it, a worthless pile of shit is always going to be a worthless pile of shit. I know I sound like a sorry pile of complains, well.. that's really not too far off of what I am. I hate it when people try to act like they really care about when you are breaking down ready to hurt yourself, but when there is nothing wrong, they are out of there like a vegetarian in a butcher shop. So honestly their words hold no weight. I'm so sick and tired of people acting like they care, if I died tonight I can count the people that would miss me on one hand, and then they would get over it, like everybody does. Its like if you really like a certain pair of shoes, and those shoes get so dirty and worn out that they just need to go in the trash, you just get a new pair of shoes. No they won't be exactly the same and you will miss the way they fit just right, but you will wear in you new shoes, and after a while those old shoes will just be a memory.
2. Waste of time, money and energy. College... I worked my ass off for 4 1/2 years to get my college degree. I gave up a lot of stuff because stupid me thought that if I worked really hard in college and got good grades that it would help me get a job after college... boy was I mistaken. Now if I would have started the job where I am 4 years ago, I wouldn't have $12,000 in student loans, and I would most likely be in management because I had all that time to develop myself. So, is going to college a good idea... only if your job will pay for it.
3. Sometimes it just needs to hurt. Yeah you can make what you want of that, but for me scratching or cutting works pretty well, I haven't felt the need to cut or scratch in a while, but lately the need has been super intense, we'll see what happens... I doubt it will go away.