Freaking whatever

So lately I've felt so lost and confused about what I should be doing in life. It just seems like anything I try to doesn't work out. Its so freaking frustrating! And then I feel like a complete ass hole when I hear about someone else who's plans didn't work out. So then I look back at myself and it seems so crazy that I feel bad that I was complaining about my life. I mean its not like I don't have a job or house or anything else like that. At least I have a job, a place to live and a nice husband. Its so freaking frustrating but whatever. I'm just so over it, and my husband is doing his stupid Japanese anime porn thing again. He watched these stupid anime shows with girls who have no waist and huge boobs, with almost nothing covering them. How am I supposed to compete with this....

One of his favorites called Witchblade... which has this totally awesome story line or so he says, now if you ask him whats its about all he says is there is this lady who is chosen to wield the witchblade... totally awesome story line....